Olya
(Chernobyl, 1986)
Little
woman the nurses called her –
for the way she brought a lifetime’s grace
to
a child’s demeanour,
how when she
danced she hardly parted those feet –
her small weight so subtle from
ball
to arch, heels barely lifting for each
quick surge she sent up her
spine to
fountain arms and sprinkle fingers.
Later she began to move like
that doe
they filmed returning from the Reactor:
skinny and slowed into some
other,
parallel time. I’d quarter fruit and she’d
refuse
it. Near the end
she drew nothing
but ballerinas. Beamed at visitors who
befriended her for articles
and art
then never came back. Her sister says –
Two
angels took her. One
each hand.
I prefer facts to moondust. And yet
the intern shakes a methodical
head, insists
that with her spine completely rotten
still
the impossible happened. In
that long
black sleep before she stopped – before
the
machine’s insolent
bleep – those
wasted toes stirred. Practised steps.